A couple of days ago in this post I shared that I really want to focus on one, singular goal for this year, and that goal is to learn to care for and love myself.

I’ve written, re-written, and re-written some more about how I wanted to approach this goal because I’ve never done something like this and I honestly don’t know what I’m doing. It kind of feels like swinging at a piñata but you’ve been turned the wrong direction and you’re underwater so you’re really confused about what direction to swing and be successful, but you don’t learn if you don’t fail a few times, right?

That’s what I keep telling myself at least, ha!

I’ve talked about my insecurities as a mom and the struggles I have had with mental illness and how that truly changed me as a person. Over the last several years my purpose has been to take care of my family, keep my career moving forward, and trying to manage the day to day stresses of being an adult (anyone else over this whole adult-ing thing?) and I haven’t really taken the time to get to know the new woman that I’ve become. I am happy with my day to day activities, but I’m not happy with myself. How can I be? I feel like I can’t accomplish anything I set my mind to, I’m certainly not beautiful in the way that I once believed, and I am missing out on a lot as a parent because I just don’t have the physical, mental, or emotional stamina to fully invest myself. It’s exhausting.

In the last month I have really come to terms with the fact that I am not happy with myself. I’m not proud of myself. I don’t even like myself. As overwhelming emotions poured over me in this realization, I also remembered a conversation with my doctor. She asked me what it is that I truly wanted to be for my daughters, and my response was that all I want to be is a good mom. I just want my kids to have the best mom that they can have. She told me that for me to be the best mom that I could be, I needed to start with ME and take care of myself.

This has really come to grasp me and I’ve come to realize that there are so many of us out there that are struggling with self love and caring for ourselves, I know I’m not alone with this one. I am making it my goal to care for myself and love myself this year, and I wanted to share that journey with anyone and everyone that wants to come along with me. We can all go our own pace, but we can help each other forward, encourage each other, and keep moving together towards learning how to appreciate ourselves for the amazing, strong women we are.

Together, I think that we can change for the better and increase happiness, positivity, and light in our own lives. I believe through learning to care for ourselves physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, and whatever other way you can think of- we can learn to love ourselves. I came up with the idea that LOVE EVOLVES HER.

The woman is smart, beautiful, and capable but she doesn’t see it. By learning to see it and love it, her life is infinitely changed.I truly,100% believe that through self love and care, we can evolve into the person we are capable of being, the person we are meant to be. If you take a woman and give her a chance to really know and love herself, she will shine. Love evolves her, and she is evolved for the better.

Over the course of the next year, I have a bunch of ideas to help spread awareness about self love and to implement the idea that LOVE EVOLVES HER into my life. For any of you that would like to join me on this journey, I would love to hear about it! Tag me in anything you post that is related to appreciating or loving yourself, and use #loveevolvesher

I cannot wait to see what this year brings and all of the amazing evolving that we do this year! Bring on 2018!

XXOO Sunny